Wednesday, December 10, 2025
Fresh keds
Sunday, December 07, 2025
Union College
I finally got the gumption to pull from my shelf the copy of Doris Kearns Goodwin's Team of Rivals that had been taking up space there for some time, since whenever I paid $9 for it at some lucky used bookstore.
Friday, December 05, 2025
For the weak
"Patents are for the weak." Elon Musk says a lot of stupid stuff, but this one is interesting. Patents, in his mind, stifle creativity and hinder the flow of ideas. A good company or productive scientist should be able to come up with new ideas to keep getting better. It's an extreme position but an interesting thought experiment.
Thursday, December 04, 2025
The perils of attention at the highest level
One gets the sense these days that the Big Men of the world are playing for posterity, in the worst possible way. Globally the network economies of attention and the ability of social networks to concentrate it at scale have contributed to a general rash of them breaking out all over: Trump, Putin, Xi Jinping, MBS, Modi, Erdogan and so on down to the Mileis, Maduros, Musevenis and Bukeles of the world. Everybody jockying for position on the big board and trying to siphon eyeballs away from the Zuckerbergs, Bezos, Elons, etc.
An article in The Economist this week noted that Ayatollah Khamenei of Iran is now 86 and that he probably wants to cement his legacy in a big way. Hell, they all do. Right now I think in their respective minds they are all playing chess with Hitler, Stalin, Mao etc and trying to figure out how to inscribe themselves into history indelibly. While they are also competing for eyeballs with Mr Beast and Sydney Sweeney's breasts.
Not a good situation. On the flip side, I continue to be impressed by people working hard to build low level connectivity across domains. My former client at the University of Georgia who works building relations with other universities globally. YouTubers traveling the world (and the US) on foot, on bicycle, on motorcycle to the deepest nooks and crannies of places insanely far off the beaten track and posting testimonials to the hospitality and ingenuity of others everywhere. It gives me hope.
Things fall apart. But which things fall apart most quickly, that's the question.
Wednesday, December 03, 2025
One last time
Up at the UNC Surgical Hospital for one last cosmetic little touch-up procedure* which will hopefully bring Mary's little cancer journey to a full and final conclusion. When did we start down this road? 20 months ago? Hard to say. It's all a bit of a blur.
To be sure sure we have thrust into a whole new level of adulting and have been offered fresh perspective on things in general. It is much harder to get bent out of shape over little things, though, as our kids can attest, it's not like we're fully immune from all of our historical petty squabbles. Rather, our immunity has been boosted to a level not likely to cause severe illness, as with a COVID vaccine, for example.
In the autumn the '83 Tigers had a collective 60th birthday party out at the Farm. I found out when this grey-haired guy greeted me as I was getting in my car after tennis. It was Doug Rose, who told me to stop by the party. "We're in the 4th quarter," he told me. I am not a fan of that metaphor. I prefer to think of the years after 60 as the third trimester. For one, with life expectancy for American 60-year olds hovering around 86, with a higher skew yet for the affluent, the trimester metaphor is more mathematically accurate. Cosmologically I think it is perhaps less accurate than the sports analogy, as I have not yet gone to church enough times to have bought into the whole rebirth in Jesus/New Life construct.
Keep reading. We'll see which way it goes.
*The surgeon just came out and gave two thumbs up
Saturday, November 29, 2025
Anarchy and Old Dogs
And so, as I said, a mystery novel. To wit, Anarchy and Old Dogs, the fourth novel in the Siri Paiboun mysteries set in Laos in the 1970s, written by Colin Cotterill, a British guy who has spent much of his life in Southeast Asia. I picked it up more or less randomly at Flyleaf, though I had read books from the imprint which published it and liked them.
This one too has many merits. As with so many mystery novels, it is less about the mystery itself and more about moving a bunch of characters through space and allowing them to have interactions and adventures. In this case, in Laos, a country one tends to think about rather rarely, the smallest and poorest country in Southeast Asia, landlocked and mountainous. Perhaps one could view it as the West Virginia of Southeast Asia.
Perhaps a mystery novel written by a Brit isn't the best way to get me thinking about the place, and almost surely many objections can and should be made to how he depicts Laos, but at least I'm thinking about it a little and I did a little perusing of the region on Wikipedia to contextualize it all. Better than nothing.
The texture and flow of the novel differ from that of most. In the end I was barely aware of the main contours of the mystery as such and really didn't care that much. I liked the characters a lot and want to spend more time with them, so I will, by going back to the first novel in the series, which extends out to fifteen or so. We'll see how many I read.
Thursday, November 27, 2025
Holiday readings
It seems only appropriate to subsume Thanksgiving into my general shabbos rule of no financial reading or activities, so I noted with delight that this week's Economist (which, as per usual, had arrived belatedly but just in time to my work mailbox on Tuesday) contains the magazine's books of the year section, historically a fine source of good additions to my book list, which Herr Bezos continues, bless his heart, to maintain for me free of explicit charge, though of course it just makes me spend more time on his platform.
Tuesday, November 25, 2025
More numbers to pressure myself with
DuoLingo has recently started more consistently offering scoring for language attainment based no CEFR standards. So now I have scores in a bunch of languages which let me benchmark where I am. None of my scores are particularly high, which is particularly vexing in Russian, where my score is 45 or "pre-intermediate." The problem is that DuoLingo doesn't offer Russian training above that level for English speakers.
Next DuoLingo enabled (in principle [spoiler alert]) integration with LinkedIn, so you can broadcast your proficiency in your various languages to the whole world, or at least the trivial, pathetic corner of the world that cares who you are or what you know or do. So not only might I have another set of numbers by which to judge myself but a set by which to let the world judge me. Which would of course be in the back of my fevered and silly mind.
Yesterday evening, acting against the counsel of the inner voice in my head insisting that I should under no circumstances publish my language scores on LinkedIn, lest the publicness of it all goad me into spending even more time on DuoLingo, I pressed the button.
It didn't work. My guardian angel had swooped in at the last moment to protect me from myself. Thanks dude!
Monday, November 24, 2025
Requiem for some hideous loafers
Sometime back in Princeton Mary told me I needed to get some kind of casual, non-business, non-athletic shoes I could wear to social events. Being my normal happy-go-lucky, ever-obliging self, I skittered off down to the nearest DSW Shoe Wearhouse and picked up the loafers shown below. I shopped for them diligently for as much as 15, perhaps even 20 minutes.
The iota of difference, again and again
Went to church for the first time outside the context of a memorial service or a 12-step meeting for a very long time. Honestly I can't tell you when it was. I remember trying to go to church back in July of 2009 when I was alone in Princeton getting our house organized to move and Mary and the kids were in Larchmont while her dad was dying. I tried to go, but I got there and somehow I had gotten the time of the service wrong. Maybe my feelings about going were more mixed than I let on to myself.
Saturday, November 22, 2025
Departing Maine for a bit
As I recently mentioned, the end of EB White's One Man's Meat was at long last drawing nigh, and I was determintd to reach it. Which I have now done.
Towards the end of the book, as momentum built, I at long last fully caught White's gestalt, his deep appreciation for the rhythms of nature and history, the arc of his own life, and the intertwinedness of the whole thing. Though my life is resolutely suburban and mostly devoted to outsourcing the making and doing of many things and tasks to others, White embraced the making, doing, fixing, preserving, husbanding necessary to live on a farm. My life, in short, is a good deal more abstracted up, where his was concreted down. Though it must be owned that he thought deeply and wrote elegantly about the relationships between himself and the worlds he lived in, at home, in community, the globe, and the cosmos. And that my often forcible reintegration into the manual tasks of preserving and managing matter -- as with Tolstoi and his broom and Shklovsky's reflections thereupon -- was my blog's primal scene.
In the end I can only be deeply flattered by the likeness sensed by Hilary which caused her to send me the book a few years back. To be honest, I am tempted to begin the book again or to go get more of his stuff. But first, a mystery novef.
Monday, November 17, 2025
Autumnal bustle
For the first time in a month, Sunday did not ask that I gussy myself up even incrementally and transport myself to a memorial service. I was grateful for that. Instead, I was able to keep getting things done on Sunday, clearing the roof of leaves and also the patio, for a second time in one weekend -- as always making a mockery of me, but at least it keeps them out of the mud room, and thus Mary happy.
I then installed new LED bulbs in the basement in place of old and dead fluorescent ones. All of a sudden, I saw the basement in a whole new light and was inspired to take action to begin the long, long delayed problem of cleaning it up. I put some things over here, others over there, all told created more usable floor space. With the aid of an old and decrepit broom, I abated a bunch of cobwebs.
My mind raced back to the pandemic when many people were posting videos on their social networks of choice showing how they cleaned out basements and sheds. "That looks like a fine idea," I thought to myself. Instead, I decided and then proceeded to increase the frequency of my blogging. But the idea never really left my mind, lingering and niggling back there in the back. As with many people, social media begat invidious self-comparison. Thankfully, I appear to be incrementally more resistent to it than most, though I seem to be falling victim at long last.
Sunday, November 16, 2025
The ever-insistent clock
Right now I am due on the tennis court in 40 minutes or so, the sun goes down 5:30ish. Meanwhile, great brown blobs of leaves has settled on our roof and need to be brought down. It is, moreover, November 16, making Thanksgiving right around the corner and Christmas coming right behind that. Then in 1Q16 a guy is coming to redo our bathroom, if I can assure that Mary is organized with all of her choices for tiles, fixtures, blah blah and blah. Right now I believe she may have tabs open in her browser for those things.
With year end approaching, there are all these other year end tasks at the office. Historically though one might do tax-loss selling to lower people's income, but with income taxes at an impossibly low level given the deficit, it might not make sense to lower their tax burden now, but instead to leave that for the future. Really, with a number of people out of work, it makes more sense to get people organized to accelerate taxes from the future to the present with Roth conversions while they are in lower than normal brackets in a nonsensical tax policy moment.
The clock beats down upon me from every direction, including the blog. And the fact that post office delivered The Economist, mysteriously, two issues at once this week, having teased me mercilessly once again. So I have more reading than usual piled up.
I knocked out a number of unexpected tasks yesterday, taking a bunch of crap to the solid waste center on Eubanks and then going to Lowe's to buy more crap to replace it. Sadly, I missed out on one parameter of Mary's very detailed instructions to buy lightbulbs so they must be returned. Really I should let her do it. It is good for her to leave the house, and maybe she will look at bathroom stuff and flesh out her ideas for the 1Q16 renovation (see paragraph 1).
Thursday, November 13, 2025
Renewal
I walked from home to Auto Logic at the end of Monday to pick up my 2014 Prius V, which had been in for inspection and its annual check up. Turned out it needed a couple of things, including front brake pads, which they took care of same day.
There's nothing better than spending a little money to take care of major objects in one's life to extend their usable lifetimes. Old things trump new ones every time, though that in no way diminishes the mild frisson which comes with being forced to finally replace one, as with Mary's 2010 Prius C, aka Beatrice, which needs to be replaced because the cost of fixing the AC exceeds the value of the car.
I had planned out my route to Carrboro cleverly, I thought. After walking up to Estes Hills School I planed to go down Caswell and drop into the path system in the wooded ravines below Mt Bolus, make my way over to the path along Bolin Creek, then take that across Airport, past Umstead Park and into Northside, and thence to Carrboro. Problem was, I had forgotten that my proposed route involved a fair amount of backtracking to get me over to the Bolin Creek trail. This may have added half a mile to my route, which made me have to walk hard to make it to Carrboro by 6. Despite the breezy autumn chill, I was sweaty by the time I made it there. But I did.
Wednesday, November 12, 2025
Driving toward conclusions
All too often my efforts on various fronts -- even on consumption -- are too scattershot to be meaningful. I spread myself too thin to make concrete progress, because there's so much out there to be consumed.
I have decided to push through to the end on a couple of things:
- Season 7 of Itchy Boots on YouTube, in which our heroine Noralee of the Netherlands rides a motorcycle down the West Coast of Africa from Morocco down to Angola, then crosses to Zambia. She has currently flown to Madagascar (there being no boats on which to take her bike). I have now watched 96 episodes and am coming to the end, after two years of on and off watching (and also dipping into other seasons now and again).
- EB White's One Man's Meat, a 1942 collection of articles from Harper's which chronicle his return to Maine from Manhattan and settling into rural life while WWII rumbles in the distance. This was given to me by my former girlfriend Hilary three years ago (I see from an earlier post), so has been lingering on my bedside table since then, taken up as palate-cleansing between other books, a practice which has robbed it of momentum and the benefit which comes from focus.
Saturday, November 08, 2025
That time of year
Because I have to head to Little Washington tomorrow for Tim's memorial service, I had to get some raking done today. The leaves were pretty wet, but they need tackling nonetheless.
Friday, November 07, 2025
More funerals than weddings
Headed to my third funeral in as many weekends on Sunday. The first was of a friend's parents, the second a friend's ex-spouse, this last one a cousin's spouse -- but he was a decade older. Nonetheless we see a trend here.
By comparison, this year I have been to one wedding and one "wedding party" which was kind of like a mercy fuck for friends of the parents so that the lucky couple wouldn't have to suffer through the suffocating presence of the parents' friends on their Big Day. "It's supposed to be our special day, not yours!" They undoubtedly said to mom and dad. As if bride and groom have to pay any attention whatsoever to the parents' friends. I coulda told them that. You just make eye contact and give that firm grip for the briefest of interactions then pocket the loot and bustle off to Cabo.
And so we are deprived of that natural cadence, that middle-life period when weddings and births at least keep pace with if not outpace funerals in a life-affirming way. Ah well, such is life.
Tuesday, November 04, 2025
Hyperscaler outages, security and defense funding
With Amazon's AWS had major issues that slowed down the internet a couple of weeks ago, then last week it was Microsoft's Azure which was creaking. Officially there are denials that any kind of hacking was involved, be it by Russia, North Korea, or just plain thugs.
I am generally not inclined to be a big conspiracy theorist but on this one I am skeptical of the denials. With China routinely testing Taiwan with flyovers and other crap and Russia doing the same thing throughout Scandinavia, the Baltics, and even Denmark and Germany, we know they are trying to fuck with us wherever and whenever they can. My guess is that in one way or another we are being tested by somebody. Watch Google's cloud platform have similar issues next week.
Which brings us to an interesting point. Ian Bremmer advanced the thesis that the mega-tech companies need to be considered strategic actors themselves. Amazon's revenue is similar in scale to the GDP of a Poland or Sweden. Apple's is about the same size as Thailand's. The hyperscalers' data centers will become attractive bombing targets for our adversaries and will need to be defended. Eventually they will wish to have influence over defense strategies developed at the Pentagon etc. In some sense I get it, we will all depend on these data centers, to some extent we already do. It would make sense to prioritize their defense. But if our allies in Europe and Asia are being pressed to raise their defense spending, shouldn't we be doing the same for the hyperscalers? Should they not be paying more for the defense of their assets?
Monday, November 03, 2025
"Football brings the money"
People like to talk about how big football is important to universities (like UNC) because they bring in so much money to support other things, like non-revenue sports. If that were in fact the case, you'd expect SEC schools to be wealthier than Ivy League schools.
In fact, the opposite is true. In the SEC the only schools that have endowments bigger than $3 billion are Texas and Texas A & M (both funded by oil money, not football) and Vanderbilt, which is itself an anomaly in the SEC and would probably fit better in the ACC as currently constituted, culture-wise.
By contrast, the smallest endowment in the Ivy League is Brown's $8 billion. And remember, the really important number is endowment per student. The Ivy League schools are on average much smaller than those in the SEC. What about all that football money? Where did that go? It would seem that not enough SEC alums on average make enough money to contribute materially to their alma maters. Or don't consider doing so worth their while.
It would be interesting to compare the career earnings of, say, members of the University of Alabama football team with, say, the Columbia football team. Yes, more of the former would go to the NFL and make big money there. The lion's share (pun intended) of the members of Columbia's team undoubtedly end their careers when they walk across the stage at graduation and go on to have successful careers in a range of professions, a good chunk of them lucrative. I know which team I'd bet on.
If UNC goes to the SEC for football money it will be a monumental act of stupidity.
Holden Thorp was in town to speak last week and somebody asked him about the football question. He reportedly said something like this: "A lot of people want UNC to be Harvard five days a week and Alabama two days a week. I think UNC should be the University of North Carolina seven days a week." Very wise words indeed. The university of Andy Griffith, who wandered into a footbal stadium bewildered before declaring "what it was was football." Football. A nice opportunity for socializing, grilling, being in fall air, silly songs and dances, nothing more.
Sunday, November 02, 2025
A thinning ecosystem of books
At the Chapel Hill Public Library the other day, I couldn't help but notice how the selection of books seems to have gotten smaller.* For example, there was a whole shelf section dedicated to books by James Patterson in the mystery section. Floor to ceiling, maybe five foot in width. Mostly hardcovers.
I know that libraries like everything else in our world have to cater to customers so are ultimately numbers driven. So they look at what people are reading and apparently they want to read James Patterson and the hardcovers indicate that the readers are old and prefer a larger font size, which is something I understand entirely. Perhaps I should read one of his books to see what the hubbub is about.
But there's only so much shelf space and I hate to see so many authors whose names I don't even know crowded out before I get to know them. There's a lot of quite reasonable ambient concern about how the smartphone is killing the book, among other things, but as victims go the book's the one that concerns me the most. Substacks and YouTube are great. Fora in which stories can be told abound and flourish as I type. But books rightly have a unique place in the firmament of media as profferers and conservators of complicated narratives and arguments. The more diverse, the better. One hates to see them crowded out by too much of the same.
*Re-reading this, I must admit that it's possible I am wrong and my impression was based on my small sample on that day. One thing that's true for sure is that I spend less time in the library than I did when the kids were younger, which is a little sad. It's a fine place to read and also observe and run into people.
Friday, October 31, 2025
Jonathan Livingston Seagull
As I mentioned back in July, at the conclusion of Kyla Scanlon's conversation with Ezra Klein on his podcast he asked her what books she would recommend. The first thing out of her mouth was Jonathan Livingston Seagull. I was like "what what???" Not what I would have expected.